![\"IMG_2727.jpg\"](\"/uploads/IMG_2727.jpg\")
\nNo, I’m not talking about not working, I’m talking about not leaving home at all. The past week was errands intensive that I feel burned out just from the sight of the street. So I’m staying in this weekend, and trying to catch up with my to-do list.
I’ve spent the last 4 days reconstruct the entire website. The previous version was out of personality and sterile. Now the vision is complete, and I’m sure there will few infrastructure polishing. My next step is to focus on filling the studio with some projects, and work on my design studio.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2026-06-29T19:58:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/notes/holy-cow/", "url": "https://baderb.me/notes/holy-cow/", "title": "May god help us", "content_html": "![\"prettyhot.gif\"](\"/uploads/notes/prettyhot.gif\")
\nHoly hell! The heat is unbearable!
Today I’ve created this new section on my website to feature short bursts of posts. Or more like my own version of Twitter to simply post whatever going on in my life. This feature is my attempt at an independent revolution against the corporate walled gardens of hell. An attempt to detach myself from using corpo social networks.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2026-06-26T00:00:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/action-paralysis-and-creative-outputs/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/action-paralysis-and-creative-outputs/", "title": "Action paralysis & creative outputs", "content_html": "I find myself daydreaming throughout the day about creating stuff on the computer. That only happens when I’m away from my desk. I dream about how my current setup will facilitate my creativity and how it will enables me reach a level of creativity I’ve never reached before, or a level of creative flow that I’ve always dreamed of.
\n\nI work on two machine in a daily basis. I have my Mac which is my daily driver, where I do my most serious work and planning. The Mac is my digital home in life. And I have a Windows machine that is a beast. Built from scratch to be capable to handle difficult processes such as physics simulation and intense graphic rendering.
\n\nI’ve also attached a Wacom Pro tablet and a Komplete midi keyboard to the Windows machine to work with Adobe Suite or to compose sound with Ableton Live.
\n\nSo technically speaking, my entire environment enables to me to express my creativity fully. Yet when I’m at my desk, I find myself staring at my monitors unable to start anything. This is not a decision paralysis, it’s simply the lack of a motive or an emotional connection to produce anything.
\n\nI’ve personally associated my creativity with my commercial work, and that made my creative alignment dedicated solely toward clients. When I try to create for my own pleasure, I find myself numb and lacking the motive to do anything. It’s like I’m only waiting orders from someone else to establish a project or complete a task.
\n\nI seem to be only functioning with external prompting, and all of that felt like an epiphany that happened while I’m typing those very words.
\n\nWhat would I do with this newly gained insight? I’m not sure. But I’m grateful that I’m aware now of my inner working, and this is the starting point to solve this personal puzzle.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2026-06-22T12:20:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/revisiting-atomic-habits-8-years-later/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/revisiting-atomic-habits-8-years-later/", "title": "Revisiting Atomic Habits, 8 Years Later", "content_html": "I remember reading this book the month it got released. I’ve never looked back into it when I finished it, and somehow, whatever learnings I gained from it faded from my brain.\nAnd now, 8 years later, for some reason I picked it up again, and I was reading it in awe like how could I not implement any of those wisdoms into my life? But I’m not harsh on myself the way I used to be, so I excused my past self for not knowing any better. I’m not saying that the book is god given, but I could say it talks about problems that I face on a daily basis.
\n\n\n\n\nwe convince ourselves that massive success requires massive action. Whether it is losing weight, building a business, writing a book, winning a championship, or achieving any other goal, we put pressure on ourselves to make some earth-shattering improvement that everyone will talk about.
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This is something engraved in my daily patterns. I used to barely do anything in my day because I kept waiting for those massive shattering moments to arrive in order to gain improvements.
\n\nI believe this pattern of thinking exists in everyone’s mind: some people seek it in the form of some godly inspiration or an epiphany, some are waiting for a winning ticket in the lottery to transform their lives, and some keep fantasizing about the moment that someone will discover them and boost them through their career ladder. Even though these transformations do exist, their probability is very low, and the probability of stalling your life increases with every minute spent waiting for them.
\n\n\n\n\n“When nothing seems to help, I go and look at the stonecutter hammering away at his rock, perhaps a hundred times without as much as a crack showing in it. Yet at the hundred and first blow it will split in two, and I know it was not that blow that did it—but all that had gone before.”
\n
This paragraph did affect my outlook on how daily habits or daily tiny actions compound into something greater. For example I enjoy creating music, and I’m trying to make it a daily habit. But every time I get frustrated by a creation I quit and never look back into it. Because I always have this expectation that I will have a genius moment and compose the perfect piece in one go. But progress takes time, and the genius composition is the result of compounding daily efforts.
\n\n\n\n\nEach habit not only gets results but also teaches you something far more important: to trust yourself. You start to believe you can actually accomplish these things. When the votes mount up and the evidence begins to change, the story you tell yourself begins to change as well.
\n
This is something I highly relate to. I personally face this internal conflict on a daily basis. I create something and never see it through and never publish it. Not because it is lacking, but rather because I don’t trust myself to see it finished. I believed in the story that I was the guy who does things and never finishes them, it became part of my identity, and somehow I was sold that this is a genius quirk like Da Vinci. Or I get to blame my ADHD and get away with it.\nSharing quotes from the book will never gain you knowledge because mostly they are out of context, and context is where learning is gained. We all keep bumping into millions of quotes on the internet daily but they aren’t really impactful because we are not relating to them in the deepest levels, and we aren’t seeing the context behind them.
\n\nI’m writing these mostly for myself, so I can engrave these new ideas and learnings into my brain and my outlook on life.
\n\nBecause I easily lose sight of what I read if I don’t take any action by writing them down or give them a personal context.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2026-03-19T12:35:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/seasonal-brain-dump/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/seasonal-brain-dump/", "title": "Seasonal Brain Dump", "content_html": "![\"snippets-summer.jpg\"](\"/uploads/snippets-summer.jpg\")
My wife and I, we have this yearly ritual where we go vacay in a sea side resort at the end of each summer. It signify our gratefulness for a wonderful summer, and as a gap between seasons to sit down and reflect what we has been and what will be.
\n\nThe recent summer was bright for me, it guided me through the grief of my past career, and made me face the decision that I have been contemplating for a long time.
\n\nSince I’ve published my last essay, I’ve been waking up every day with a relief, with a brighter mood, and excitement toward the future. It is a tough decision, and it is hard to switch career, specially when you get used to something you kept doing for 15 years. Your mind and hands are so used to the set of tools you used to think, and your mind is also used to the daily logic of the profession.
\n\nBut again, I’m relieved that I don’t have to do this anymore, and I’m grateful for having the luxury of choice to not keep doing this any longer.
\n\nPeople around me still insists that I’m a designer, I get messages and phone calls asking if I could do this or that. As much as I’m grateful for their trust in my set of skill, I’m also grateful that I can say no and not feeling the slightest remorse about it.
\n\n![\"snippets-marco.jpg\"](\"/uploads/snippets-marco.jpg\")
Nowadays I’m spending most of my time practicing hobbies, playing with the cats, and spending lovely times with the wife. Also looking forward for the upcoming season to practice astrophotography, to spend lengthy times in the desert gazing toward the sparkling night sky.
\n\nBut still, I can’t be parted from my computers. I still spend quite sometime on my computer(s).
\n\n![\"snippets-desert.jpg\"](\"/uploads/snippets-desert.jpg\")
Now I shift my focus to what’s ahead. Since I’ve become more of a physical person rather than a digitally oriented one, I now enjoy working my hands with physical tools and spend my time outdoors as much as possible. This fall/winter season will be aimed toward enhancing my astrophotography skills, sharing fire pits with my wife, and having long-distance trips in the gcc deserts with my mates.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/snippets-desert.jpg", "date_published": "2025-11-15T11:53:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/chasing-boredom/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/chasing-boredom/", "title": "Chasing Boredom", "content_html": "I keep finding myself doomscrolling, getting inspirations from the wrong places, and motivated for the wrong reasons. I know that my phone is my personal demon, and I choose to get soaked by it every time I pick it up.
\n\nI feel gray and dull, my curiosity is dusted, and my thinking is an imitation of something I’ve seen gone viral on Twitter.
\n\nI’m not romanticizing boredom as much as I’m attempting to chase clarity through it. Being sunk in the constant gibberish noise won’t help you listen yourself, nor will help you create the space for your own thinking.
\n\nI want to be bored, I want to stare at white walls, I want to lubricate squeaky doors, I want to pay a close attention to a random tiny creature I find at the doorstep.
\n\nI want the ability to stay put and write more, to be more tolerable toward blank canvases and blinking cursors.
\n\nI want to dismiss news on AI, economy analytics, viral memes, shitposting, and the constant heavy battle for attention on the web.
\n\nI want the slow internet, the obscure blog that talks about making ardiunio managing a herb garden, the sound designer who extracts sound patterns from a leaf, and bookworm who read a novel about the lost milk bottle.
\n\nI want to pay attention to the invisible, and touch the vulnerable.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2025-10-24T15:00:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/why-i-quit-being-a-graphic-designer-for-now-at-least/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/why-i-quit-being-a-graphic-designer-for-now-at-least/", "title": "Why I Quit Being a Graphic Designer? (For now, at least)", "content_html": "I’ve been attempting to write this short essay since I left my last company in 2023. I was stormed with emotions I couldn’t explain, and I felt traumatized whenever I tried to “design” something. It made me agitated and unhappy.
\n\nI’ve had conversations about it for a long time with my wife and some friends, about why I find it so hard to go back to the field as a designer.
\n\nTaking my time to understand myself more, the underlying issues surfaced naturally. I was able to pinpoint the struggles I had and the motives that drove me in this career.
\n\nIt was around 2003 when I was a teenager, spending the evening with my cousin at his family house. We were just chilling in his bedroom. I was flipping through magazine pages while my cousin sat at the computer working on something I never knew even existed.
\n\nThat was the first time I discovered Photoshop. Watching my cousin compose graphic elements for his school club was mind blowing. The first thing I did when I got back home was boot up my laptop and jump onto a torrent site to download a cracked copy of the software.
\n\nI learned the how abouts, and that made me “the guy” in my immediate circle — the one to go to for graphics and shitty logos (they were cool back then). I loved it, and it was all I cared about as I grew up.
\n\nNow I’m 40 years old. Looking back, I realize I spent nearly 23 years doing design services. Some jobs were actually cool, some were not, but that’s the ebb and flow of every career.
\n\nI grew up in a dysfunctional home and was practically neglected emotionally. That made me starve for approval and attention, and I was willing to do anything to get it.
\n\nSo basically, you can put one and one together now. I used graphic design as a tool to gain approval and praise. I’m not dismissing the functionality of the job or how much I gained from it, but that was the root of it. I was accepting any form of work just to be loved and accepted. As much as I gained from this career, it practically ruined me. I neglected myself and what really mattered to me. It ruined my creativity. I neglected it in order to be part of the whole, and that actually alienated me the most.
\n\nI no longer care about it. I no longer care about working for clients. All I care about now is what I really care about: building stuff even if it’s absurd. Unleashing my creativity and making fun things, sometimes practical, sometimes not.
\n\nI’ve learned that creativity is never about money, or gaining popularity, or social acceptance. Creativity is self expression, the voice of the soul, and I’m going to protect it no matter what.
\n\nThese days I’m happy and content with what I’m doing. Spending time with my parents, my wife, and my in laws. Building fun projects with my wife or playing video games all night.
\n\nThat enhanced my creativity and allowed me to come up with ideas and projects I’m working on right now.
\n\nI’m currently working on multiple projects that I hope will see the light soon. Some of them I’m collaborating on with my amazing wife, which brought most of the fun and joy into those projects.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2025-09-18T14:27:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/a-build-manifesto/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/a-build-manifesto/", "title": "A build manifesto", "content_html": "The hunt for an original idea is paralyzing. Truth is, there’s no such thing. Everything is built on top of something else. Every creation is a compound of what came before it.
\n\nYou wouldn’t recognize Da Vinci’s work if it were buried among other Renaissance paintings. And you wouldn’t know who built that house if it weren’t for the label on the construction fence.
\n\nThe world is a free market. Everyone’s invited. Everyone can play, create, build. No one owns a method. No one can gatekeep a process. Everything is fair game. You’re allowed to take what already exists and stack something better on top.
\n\nAlmost 90% of SaaS products today were made that way. Layers of APIs. Libraries on top of libraries. Dependencies stitched together to form something that works. That’s the standard now.
\n\nTrying to build every piece yourself isn’t amazing, it’s a waste of time. Not just in software. In garment factories too. It makes no sense to be the source of every thread, every fiber. Focus on what matters. Build from what already works.
\n\nBuild and compound.\nBuild and compound.\nBuild and compound.
\n\nFind something good.\nThen do it better.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2025-07-05T12:28:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/back-to-the-living/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/back-to-the-living/", "title": "Back to the living", "content_html": "I had to take few days off from being an adult. I had a case of flu that paused my momentum in running and my attempt to revive my design studio.
\n\nThe last running session was so intense that I’ve reached almost 90% from my heart capacity, therefore, I need to pull back on my current running program to slowly regain my usual pace.
\n\nThe flu setback was beneficial to me to some extent. I’ve realized how negatively impactful social networks on me, and that made me stop using them at once. So, I spent my lay down in bed days playing Nintendo and writing some ideas.
\n\nI’ve also realized how much I’ve missed my astronomy sessions. Why did I even stop practicing? Even though summer is approaching, maybe the practice of taking my equipment out in the field would be good to me (It has always been).
\n\nAlso, I have plenty of astronomy data that I’ve never processed. So, I might just do that in the upcoming few days.
\n\nSo, that was a quick update, now back to the main lane. 🏇
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2025-04-22T12:57:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/leap-of-faith/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/leap-of-faith/", "title": "Leap of faith", "content_html": "I’ve been attempting to write this short essay since I left my last company in 2023. I was stormed with emotions I couldn’t explain, and I felt traumatized whenever I tried to “design” something. It made me agitated and unhappy.
\n\nI’ve had conversations about it for a long time with my wife and some friends, about why I find it so hard to go back to the field as a designer.
\n\nTaking my time to understand myself more, the underlying issues surfaced naturally. I was able to pinpoint the struggles I had and the motives that drove me in this career.
\n\nIt was around 2003 when I was a teenager, spending the evening with my cousin at his family house. We were just chilling in his bedroom. I was flipping through magazine pages while my cousin sat at the computer working on something I never knew even existed.
\n\nThat was the first time I discovered Photoshop. Watching my cousin compose graphic elements for his school club was mind blowing. The first thing I did when I got back home was boot up my laptop and jump onto a torrent site to download a cracked copy of the software.
\n\nI learned the how abouts, and that made me “the guy” in my immediate circle — the one to go to for graphics and shitty logos (they were cool back then). I loved it, and it was all I cared about as I grew up.
\n\nNow I’m 40 years old. Looking back, I realize I spent nearly 23 years doing design services. Some jobs were actually cool, some were not, but that’s the ebb and flow of every career.
\n\nI grew up in a dysfunctional home and was practically neglected emotionally. That made me starve for validation, and I was willing to do anything to get it.
\n\nSo basically, you can put one and one together now. I used graphic design as a tool to gain validation. I’m not dismissing the functionality of the job or how much I gained from it, but that was the root of it. I was accepting any form of work just to feel validated. As much as I gained from this career, it practically ruined me. I neglected myself and what really mattered to me. It ruined my creativity. I neglected it in order to be part of the whole, and that actually alienated me the most.
\n\nI no longer care about it. I no longer care about working for clients. All I care about now is what I really care about: building stuff even if it’s absurd. Unleashing my creativity and making fun things, sometimes practical, sometimes not.
\n\nI’ve learned that creativity is never about money, or gaining popularity, or social acceptance. Creativity is self expression, the voice of the soul, and I’m going to protect it no matter what.
\n\nThese days I’m happy and content with what I’m doing. Spending time with my parents, my wife, and my in laws. Building fun projects with my wife or playing video games all night.
\n\nThat enhanced my creativity and allowed me to come up with ideas and projects I’m working on right now.
\n\nI’m currently working on multiple projects that I hope will see the light soon. Some of them I’m collaborating on with my amazing wife, which brought most of the fun and joy into those projects.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2025-02-19T11:17:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/under-the-radar/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/under-the-radar/", "title": "Under The Radar", "content_html": "![\"mj001.jpg\"](\"/uploads/mj001.jpg\")
I used to aim to be known among my peers and community. I was surrounded by people who aspired to be famous, day and night. Naturally, I felt pressured to chase the same thing. But deep down, I never had that desire, and forcing myself to pursue it only led to conflicted creative output.
\n\nSince I was a kid, my joy has always been in creating. When I create, I fully immerse myself in it, never minding the sharing part. My hard drives are filled with projects I’ve never shared with anyone—except my wife.
\n\nCreating without the pressure of public exposure brings a rare kind of freedom. It fosters an environment of pure joy and curiosity, allowing me to play, invent, and push the boundaries of what I think is possible.
\n\nWe live in a capitalist system that constantly urges us to monetize our ideas and creations, and I get that. I’m grateful, though, that I have the freedom to create without needing to.
\n\nSome of my projects have been released to the public, and some have been published by clients. But whenever possible, I detach my name from my work. I want my creations to be free, nameless, and, in a way, forgotten.
\n\nAttaching myself to my work would only stagnate future creations. It would create expectations that, eventually, would hold me back from exploring unfamiliar territories.
\n\nHere’s to creation. 🥂
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2025-02-12T14:50:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/in-doing-nothing/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/in-doing-nothing/", "title": "In Doing Nothing", "content_html": "It has been almost three weeks since we have returned from the city of Graz, Austria. Since then, I’ve been finding myself doing absolutely nothing.
\n\nAside from errands and chores, my mind has been lacking any intellectual purpose, or lacking any interest in doing anything.
\n\nI wake up every morning, have an espresso with some Costa Rican music in the background, clean and organize the apartment, feed the cats, doing the dishes, and then absolutely nothing.
\n\nI either find myself staring the TV, or doom scrolling my phone. Such a startling habits.
\n\nMy lack of interest doesn’t root in laziness, rather, it is the inability to find anything interesting to work in. Perhaps there is another factor at play, that my mind is so used to be told what to do in my previous jobs that my mind currently have no capacity to aim toward anything.
\n\nI aim to focus on the small things, like my Sun-Tue-Thu’s runs, eating right, and aim for the small wins in every little inputs I can do.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2024-08-25T13:22:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/in-search-of-freedom/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/in-search-of-freedom/", "title": "In search of freedom", "content_html": "To define freedom, we must first define constraints. In our current lives, we are surrounded by countless luxuries that blind us to our true potential.
\n\nWe claim to have freedom of speech, yet we remain anonymous on the web when we want to express our deepest selves.
\n\nWe claim to have freedom of movement, yet we are surrounded by borders and political protocols.
\n\nWe claim to have freedom of self-expression, yet we hide our true selves from our closest friends and family.
\n\nThere are many examples that can help us understand these shadow constraints, and all of them help us define our own meaning of freedom.
\n\nMy personal constraints lie in the field of comfort and luxury. I fear losing this comfort if I were to form my own definition of freedom.
\n\nI believe the form of freedom I desire most is financial freedom. I don’t mean that I aim to be a billionaire, nor am I drawn to such lifestyles. My definition of financial freedom is to have multiple sources of income without any dependencies. To be free to work on anything that my ADHD mind takes an interest in, without the need to worry about anything else.
\n\nBecause personally, I tend to wake up every day as a different person. Sometimes I wake up as a financial analyst; other times, I wake up as a musician or a cyclist.
\n\nYet, my personal constraints define my day and my behavior, forcing me into things that I have no interest in doing.
\n\nI hope that one day we will wake up from the illusion of freedom and achieve our own definitions of it.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2024-08-18T12:41:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/the-many-goals-of-man/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/the-many-goals-of-man/", "title": "The Many Goals of Man", "content_html": "Here I am, back home, typing these words after a fulfilling vacation with my wife. The trip abroad was brief, but we made the most of it, recharging our spirits and rekindling our aspirations.
\n\nI believe that one cannot live without aspirations, no matter how modest they may be. Aspirations are the mental fuel we need.
\n\nFor me, my aspirations are rooted in my habits. I don’t have a definitive finish line to cross each day; instead, I focus on my daily and weekly routines such as meditation, consistent work, and my semi-daily 3KM run.
\n\nNow, I’m recharged, and my aspirations are clear. I’m ready to return to my habitual practices:
\n\nThese aspirations look wonderful on my calendar and to-do list, but what overwhelms me is the lack of tangible measurements to gauge my progress or find milestones along the way.
\n\nNevertheless, I realize that not having a proper day job disrupts me; lacking structure in my day tends to make it chaotic and unclear.
\n\nThese aspirations are designed to steady my day as a foundation for a stable structure.
\n\nLet’s see how it goes one month from now.
\n\nOnward!
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2024-06-15T17:08:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/summer-dreams/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/summer-dreams/", "title": "Summer Dreams", "content_html": "![\"summer](\"/uploads/summer%20dreams.jpeg\")
I’m in awe on how spacious the sky is. How blue and bright it is in the afternoons. Aside from the summer heat, I find myself in a dreamy state, I find myself alleviated with ambitions and possibilities.
\n\nI love life. I love how it brings opportunities, I love how it shaped me with lots of potentials. I’m thankful for everything, like literally everything.
\n\nI believe that summer is a season of creations. It is not meant to be mundane, but an exciting time to live purely for joy and creating stuff with no setbacks.
\n\nI will allow myself to live this summer with joy, with curiosity, with ambitions, with potential, with playfulness.
\n\nI will allow myself to let go of expectations, and embrace all the summer dreams possibilities.
\n", "image": "https://baderbouarki.com/uploads/summer%20dreams.jpeg", "date_published": "2024-06-10T09:33:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/quantum-vibrations/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/quantum-vibrations/", "title": "Quantum Vibrations", "content_html": "![\"mike-lewinski-hh7UrZGZAF8-unsplash.jpg\"](\"/uploads/mike-lewinski-hh7UrZGZAF8-unsplash.jpg\")
I’ve read an article on Nautilus highlighting a book by physicist Matt Strassler, who posits that everything in the universe is composed of fields, much like electric and magnetic fields.
\n\nIf you’ve delved into books or essays on quantum physics and string theory, you’ll recognize that this is far from a novel theory or discovery.
\n\nHowever, this essay made me ponder the possible correlation between these scientific theories and the claims made by new agers about soul or mind vibrations.
\n\nIs it conceivable that a human can shift or induce changes using such a mental model? Intriguing, isn’t it?
\n\nOut of curiosity, I’ve been reading books on the Law of Attraction and Vibrational Energies. While I’m uncertain about their legitimacy and claims, connecting the dots mentally suggests they might be onto something.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2024-06-09T16:58:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/back-to-writing-and-other-things/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/back-to-writing-and-other-things/", "title": "Back to writing and other things", "content_html": "Life truly captivates me. I find myself constantly amazed by almost everything around me. Whether it’s how my wife gracefully moves around our home or plays the piano, how Marco, our cat, lounges about unexpectedly, or how gracefully our Areca palm spreads its leaves - each moment is mesmerizing.
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Lately, my wife and I have been really getting into Dave The Diver. She plays on the PlayStation, while I dive in on the Nintendo Switch. Often, we’ll spend hours exploring its depths, and we don’t find ourselves worrying about productivity at all.
\n\nEach evening, as I settle into bed, I try to reflect on my thoughts from the day. Do I feel any regret for the fun times or maybe the hours spent aimlessly scrolling online? Sometimes a slight guilt does creep in, but these days, it doesn’t linger long. I’m adjusting my perspective on what it means to truly be productive.
\n\nFor me, being there with my family increasingly takes priority over tasks that seem uninspiring or insignificant, which might explain why work sometimes feels less appealing, especially since a lot of it feels like obligatory social duties.
\n\nThere’s so much I’m eager to tackle and truly excited about. However, I want to approach these projects with the right mindset and not rush into them. I believe in the importance of not forcing my way through what matters most.
\n\nIn the meantime, I find returning to my writing quite fulfilling - it helps me gather my thoughts and deepen my insights. And as always, I make it a point to stay attuned to the marvels of the world around me, keeping alive my sense of wonder.
\n", "image": "https://baderb.me/uploads/OGimage.jpg", "date_published": "2024-05-05T12:00:00+00:00" }, { "id": "https://baderb.me/posts/Espresso/", "url": "https://baderb.me/posts/Espresso/", "title": "Espresso", "content_html": "Lately, and based on my recent posts regarding the lengthy vacation I’m currently living through. I find myself motivated toward only one thing: morning coffees.
\n\nI don’t have an intricate daily agenda. Aside from certain daily rituals and habits, I try to focus on the little things of any given day, such as my early morning coffee, internet browsing, facial masks on Tuesdays, and my 3 days a week walk/run.
\n\nI’ve been submerged in interesting conversations with my life coach Haider Al-Mosawi, mostly regarding my current burnout regarding work. Which in a nutshell I could claim the following:
\n\nWe are trained to dismiss our mental health in a world where productivity is all what matters, and we wrapped our personalities and identities with careers and outputs, which are mostly meaningless if you tend to see it in a stoic perspective.
\n\nI might be in a retrospective loop, where I comb my mind over and over in hope to gain insights about where I am and what path I’m walking through, but again, I’d rather do nothing than keep doing what I used to do, beating a dead horse.
\n\nI have plenty of ideas and creative outputs in my mind, yet I’m unable to sit down and produce them into tangible objects because somehow I’ve have tangled creativity with productivity.
\n\nSo, my current aim is to loose the interest of productivity, and relearn the meaning of creativity and playfulness.
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